Whenever you believe no one cares, you’re wrong.
Its funny to believe that in a world filled with millions to billions of people, you’re alone. That none of them care about you.
That line of thought in general is irrational. It’s statistically impossible, because your single life in one way or another has affected the lives thousands of people.
Yet this irrational line of thought is one that I kept returning to in my anxiety.
I understand and I constantly remind myself that there are many people that care about my existence.
There are many people that care about your existence but you’re just not aware.
When you’re in your darkest place, in your black hole of emotions there will always be someone there, there will always be someone that will notice. Someone that will ask after you. Reach their hand out to you. Someone to be your real friend, your place of sanctuary, your family.
It is mine, and also your job to notice the people that care. The longer you stay in your isolated little bubble of depression, thinking that no one cares about you is the longer you ignore the people that actually do care and are there for you.
Recently I started my first year of University and I’m facing the challenges of undergraduate life. Being seperated from my friends and family led me to periods of weird anxiety because I was feeling inexplicably lonely and pitying myself because I felt that I had no friends and that even If I did they didn’t care. Those kinds of negative thoughts were making me tired and sad.
I don’t like being sad or tired, I like being the positive person that makes others laugh. That refreshing breeze on a summer morning or the comforting moonlight on the darkest night. That is the type of person I want to be. Someone reliable.
During this recent Month of University I have made many friends, I have met amazing people and they noticed when I was feeling down. They noticed when I was feeling ill. I have smiled brightly and have remained positive.
My lifetime bestfriend messages me, my family calls me. I am not alone.
I know I am loved.
There will always be people around me and around you, that will care. Knowing that they’re there makes me so much stronger.
It may seem dumb to write down ‘you’re not alone’, ‘someone cares’, as it seems so obvious. Yet actually it’s a fact so easily forgotten.
Remember you’re loved.
Have a great day xxxx